i can do what you do easy

BELIEVE ME.

i'm looking up and still...nothing.
it's all good, it will all work out in the end.
the end of the year is almost here!
i really hope i get to live in upland again.
i also hope today is a good day.
i love you.

oh and to set the record straight...i'm NEVER wrong. ^_*
even when i'm wrong, i'm right.

"focus on the things that are right, not wrong."
i'm trying!

i have a plan

if i'm really in the way of you making more money by selling weed then tell me to go the fuck away.

please. don't just say things to be mean...and if you did mean that then you should let me know.
you can make it or you can break it.

i'm so fucking miserable right now. all i want to do is sleep, sleep, and sleep. i hate everything around me and i hate being awake. i know i'm not concious though, because if i were then things would be so much easier to bare.

i have a plan though...and the outcome is all me. just me. for me.

we've come too far haven't we?

it tastes good on the inside

as sweet as the outside.


"i just gotta believe in you
but you don't give me any reason to"



le fin.

why me?

"if you did that you'd be perfect"

screw you. just go away, please?

i can't wait for saturday, i'm going to force myself
to actually do something for once. it's going to be
too fun. i know it. i hope to see some faces. ^_^

lakers tonight! yesssss. beer and pizza too! i just love my family....sometimes ;D

i want to make up

...but it just don't feel right.


i can't wait for thanksgiving. it's going to be so weird, but i can't wait.
i love tonight.

a better world has got to start somewhere

so why not with you and me?

you're so good and i'm far from it. i'm trying hard for you though.

"r pocket will my be happiness." -d 08 dec. 2005.

i would give anything to make my heart stop

hurting.

fuck, i knew it wouldn't last long. it's all going to end.

"i'd probably..."

if i could afford a gun

i'd be dead.

it's not fair to feel this way.

i love myself but i don't love the person i am :(

i feel left out. i feel lost. i feel frustrated.

i'm falling away from myself, you, and everyone else.

if you won't catch me...no one will.

bang bang

"everytime that i tried to tell that we'd lost the magic we had at the start, i would weep my heart when i looked in your eyes and i searched once again for the spark."

it all starts to fade

but when is it supposed to start?



It feels bitter when it should feel sweet, it feels ragged when it should feel smooth, it feels deep purple when it should feel pink. Death has thrown a stag party in the most sacred room in my body. From now on, that space belongs to life.

where'd it go

i read today that aloneness is better than loneliness

i don't like to be alone. does that make me lonely?

probably not.

they're everywhere...just mixed up. going every which

way and i can't do a damn thing. they're fucking

up my head, my time, me.

i hate this. i hate this. i hate this. i hate this.

i don't talk becaucse i don't want your head to be

fucked up too.

where'd the spark go? where? i can't find it anymore

i can't feel it anymore. i guess it just goes away when

you do...like now.

sunny days

everytime i am with you, everything else goes
away.

thanks for being my very best friend, i love you.

i can't wait for today, tomorrow, and the next days ahead.

my stomach hurts
it's taco tuesday! yayay. laker day too, wooo.

it's such a pretttty day, let's go outside, yeah?

i can't wait to see you...i wish i had a bike.