come on baby

look out to the sea, they're waving for you to come to me.
won't you come to me?

fuck! fucked! fuck! >.< i thought it'd be different by now.


new year's eve..new year tomorrow..crazy shit. i don't know why i don't want to do anything. i'm losing it.

crossed fingers

we can only wait for so long
it's best that we forget what we're holding onto
but there's nothing left in my head but crossed fingers
wishing they could just relax again
nothing left to say but so long
i might have fallen asleep but i'm holding onto
whatevers left in my head, crossed fingers
wishing they could just relax again
wishing they could tug you back in 'till i get around to untangling
all you've got me wrapped into, all you've got me wrapped into
until i forget whatevers in my head, crossed fingers
wishing they could just relax again
i hope that you never come back here
i hope that you never come back here...you bitch.

d.c.


"keep me gasping for air and i'll always want more."

i know

i'm alone if i'm with or without you, but just being around you offers me another form of relief.


last night was a good time..friends, movies, video games, lots of pot, beeeer, and x-mas lights!
stayed up soooo late/early. now i'm with a baby and she's so cute =]


now i'm going to get high, wanna come?

you ain't gonna tie me down

You know we got problems and you failed to fix it,
I'm like, you need to go somewhere else with this shit.


on the really, yo.

i hung out with someone last night/today that i'd never thought i would again.
but it was the best. i had fun...but still something is missing.

it hasn't happened

i hate being alone yet i love it.
so much thought process goes through this though.
i'm trying hard, i really am.
i just want to know why? why?
why??? i am so confused.


"i miss you, but i haven't met you yet."

it's just that...

i only want to know why...

why would you leave like that?
why wouldn't you have said anything to me?
i hate you...and it's exhausting.

what happened?

it was me and you against the world.
now it's just me against you...and the world.

i want these days to go by so quick
i want to not be able to feel what i'm feeling

let's get out of here.

"i mend the pieces...

...only to break again."

regardless of the bullshit last night, i ended up having thee perfect night.
i sat with my best friend in front of a very nice view, drank and got super high.
drove by the mountains...got so faded..again. crazy daze.
thank you for always being there.
"from where?"

^_^ i can see clearly now...well almost!

freedom

beats everything.

today better be something better than the last ones.
crossing fingers.



i think i just might miss you more.

i can't if you won't

you are everything to me and nothing comes close to it.
but you don't need me anymore, and it hurts way too much.





i need a hug :(

exhausted

i'm tired and sick and tired then sick some more.
never fucking ending.



"you know the stripes on a tiger are hard to change."

winter

"crass said it best"

be exactly who you want to be, do what you want to do. i am he and she is she but you're the only you. no one else has got your eyes, can see the things you see. it's up to you to change your life and my life's up to me. the problems that you suffer from are problems that you make. the shit we have to climb through is the shit we choose to take. if you don't like the life you live, change it now it's yours. nothing has effects if you don't recognise the cause. if the programme's not the one you want, get up, turn off the set. it's only you that can decide what life you're gonna get.

so fucking true, it's sad. (well in my case it is)

whatever you want to do

i'm right there with you.

why does everything all of a sudden have to be so different?
i've realized a lot and i'm scared that it won't....
if i had the words i'd write 'em...but i don't.

"if i could make love to you every time we argued, we'd argue every night."

wishful thinking.
i'm here though.

through the pain

i always tell the truth.


i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry
i'm sorry....i can't help but just be sorry.
as much as you hate it...i'm sorry.

"My friends they understand me better but don't whisper goodnight."