structure

i'm learning still. STILL

i had a good day. i woke up, went to bj's and ate some bombies.
the lakers beat the celtics! yeaaah. by one point. way to go kobe.
i then went to the park with michael and we smoked and talked a lot
about music and just life. it's nice to feel familiar and heard.
got some legends and came home.
now i'm so tired and i can't wait to sleep.

my dreams just aren't what they used to be.
god, i just love new music.
thanks, AGAIN.

...if you let me in, i won't let you down.
i promise.

i found

YOU.
AND you're worth waiting a lifetime for.
AND i would...if you asked. :)

i'm doing whatever it takes to rebuild the trust that i lost.
i finally got a job, actually two jobs. i can't wait.
i'm going to school too. this is all so exciting for
me. i've never been happier. things are going the right way
for me, FOR ONCE. i have certain things i still need to work
on, but that's everyone. my days are longer and nights are
shorter, but it's all worth it.


"ying can't happen when yang don't exist."

p.s.
happy 2nd birthday, dad.
see you later.

time.

time waits for no man. time heals no wounds.
all any of us wants is more time.. time to
stand up, time to grow up, time to let go.
time.





even when we win, we don't.

i know it's all around me

the love. i can't feel it just yet.
don't worry, my friend. i'll come around.

i got some. yeah, some. got it.
like that.

^_^


new music is always a cheer up.
thank you, michael.

times change

when times change...shit sucks.
but is it for the better or worse? i hope in my case
the better. i need to work up some courage for this one.
i'm on this boat that keeps on sinking...someone save me.
just not you.

"won't you please lay with me, while i think, i'll think of wonderful things."

maybe we're not supposed to be happy.
maybe i'm not supposed to be happy.
BLAH! i'm fucking happy. fuck.

p.s.
happy birthday, dad.

i know...

i'm not on the top of your list, but i'll tell you this
i can see it on your face. i know it's not fun anymore
but i'll show you more, don't count me off.
don't count me off, cause i wait for you here like i've never been there,
with courage and fear, where the distant are near.


things that are right aren't meant to take this long.
i think i'm at that breaking point.
SAVE YOURSELF.

just when you think you've gotten through the bullshit, it decides to start all over.

once i...

wanted to be the greatest.

there's so much going on in my life and it's nothing to me.
there's always people in and out..in and out..
it's nothing to me.

i know what i want but i know i don't need it.
i need myself. i need time. i need to READ.

i can't sleep, i've taken so much nyquil..
i feel drunk...i wish it were a real feeling though

you're useless. you're pointless. you seem to be saving her...
i'm just so fucking sad.
BLAH!

if this were...

your last day on earth...how would you want to spend it?
i know exactly how and who i would spend it with.
but for some reason it makes me feel sad.
time to think...oh and vent a 'lil!


fuck you fuck you fuck you
FUCK YOU, WILL.
fuck you for thinking that you "know" me.
you have no idea why i did the things i did.
disappear!


HA! finally...

now off to problem number 2....god damnit.

p.s.
i finally got to go to a fucking laker game...so GO LAKERS!!!
(it was auuusome)

slow down

i haven't learned yet.
i miss you, my friend.

things just ain't the same no more.
i kinda like it though.