complete impossiblity

"I would give everything to never think of you again. I am only able to hold on to the things I want to lose and I can't interpret it. There is nothing wrong with not understanding yourself or understanding what's around you. I can't explain my need to myself, and that's why its such a beautiful need. The harder I try the more I think about it. I think, maybe if I can express myself rather than suffer, if I had a way to relieve the burden I am, then I live for nothing more than living, with nothing to be inspired by. But ill keep trying, trying to be something more than myself, more than just a burden. So even if you don't like what I am, I know what I am and that's enough for me. Your loss, not mine."


"I can't imagine a place without you. Im sorry I bother so much. I am trying hard to keep going on even with this constant voice in the back of my head telling me to just go. Go away, go far, go anywhere but here. You say you want me around then you tell me im a burden. The kind that sticks and won't let go, that's me. But I will keep sticking. I hope you know I mean no bad in this, I love you with my whole heart and no words come close to expressing the feelings that I have in me for you. If I weren't blind I'd see. See all you really do for me. Please just believe in me..for the sake of us, for me, and for the love we have for one another. Again, I can't imagine a place without you. I love you."

what would you do without it all?
remembering things just makes it feel like you're in that moment again.
sometimes it's nice and sometimes it ruins everything...i guess in this case
it's nice.

fuccccck you.